29 weeks, Maternity pics, AND married to Adam Levine!

It has been a crazy couple of weeks for the Dermott’s! We have been preparing Baby Boy’s nursery little by little and I have to say that, besides recovering the rocking chair, getting a lamp, window panels, a rug, and the ever unavoidable “last minute essentials”, we are almost done. Yay! Time has flown (and is flying) so fast, and I can’t believe he will be here before we know it. I also had my Maternity pics this past weekend. My sister took these for me, and I’m in love! On top of that we had our 29 week check up for our little man and everything is going great. He is one healthy dude…we are so blessed! We have seven midwives at our center, which is located within one of Fort Worth’s big hospitals, and we are slowly making our way through meeting with all of them. We are actually doing pretty good. We have met with 5 of the 7 there and still have 11 wks to go.  I love that about our midwives. They never want you to only meet with one of them. They all want to know you so that no matter when you go into labor, you are comfortable with whoever is on call–and the midwives are familiar with you and your body, and your baby.

This experience was a pretty funny one. If you know me, you know I carry all baby and pretty small, which is fine for me as long as baby boy is healthy (which he is), but it’s funny to see peoples faces, and has been annoying at times when you get asked,”When are you going to pop” or “Are you sure you’re actually pregnant?” Yes. I’m positive (+)…ha little play on words for you. What’s extra hilarious however is when the nurse who always takes me back, checks my weight, blood pressure, etc (you know who I’m talking about), she’s been there from day one with me, not only does she do a double take when she saw I was 29 weeks pregnant, but then the midwife and 3rd year student have to make me stand up to prove it. It’s just becoming the norm now and you just have to laugh, I guess. But the highlight of our visit was when the midwife kept looking over at my husband and finally says, “Oh my gosh, do you know who you look like?” I knew what was coming… She says, “Do you know who Adam Levine is? I keep doing double takes like, oh my gosh, this is Adam Levine in our hospital!” We both just burst out laughing, to which I reply, “Yes, I’m married to Adam Levine.” “Lucky girl!” our midwife says. It’s true, Adam is some eye candy for sure, but I definitely think my hubby is hotter–so yeah, I’m one lucky girl! 😉

I wanted to share some of the nursery process with you, along with some of my favorites from our maternity shoot last Saturday. Hope you enjoy!

We got his crib on Craigslist for $60! It is an Athena Nadia crib that normally retails for about $200. It was in great condition, a really pretty brown, but the hubs and I wanted to add a fun touch to it, so we decided to paint it navy blue and I’m so in love. We, well more like he, as in my husband, used Valspar spray paint and it took about two and half days start to finish. He didn’t have to sand which was awesome, but he did seal it with polyurethane at the end–which unfortunately he had to do by hand. All in all, we think this was a pretty quick process considering I’ve heard it can take a while to do things like this. Here are some pics of the crib.

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I began working on his wall art the end of July, partly cause I couldn’t help myself, and partly just because I don’t like waiting to the last minute. ha I DIY’d all his art, which I was so excited about, because it made it feel just so personal! Here are a few pics:

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The pictures in frames are actually gift bags that I received at my first baby shower that I cut out and framed with some cheap dollar tree frames. The canvas with the Dr. Suess quote I made by taking a canvas, scrapbook paper, gluing it on the canvas and then I hot glue gunned the wooden letters on.  We are keeping his name a secret until birth so I have to cover up his initial and name, but the other canvas you see I painted with a giraffe stencil. His initial and name are wooden letters that I painted white and then added a special touch with some red paint. I can’t wait for you to see. I will upload the picture of the whole thing once we have him and his name is broadcast. Next, the vintage frame you see I got from a garage sale for $2, I added some brown paint with a paint sponge so it wouldn’t cover too heavily because I really like the sage it was already, but I didn’t want it totally green. This gave it a shabby chic look which I love. I bought chevron scrapbook paper, found a google image of a boys silouhette, printed it on regular print paper but then traced it onto sticky back foam paper from Hobby Lobby. Honestly, everything crafty I get is from this store. They are my favorite! The piggy bank was a gift, along with the stuffed animals. The only wall art I actually didn’t make was the wooden elephants, also from Hobby Lobby. I saw it and just couldn’t help myself. $14. I already had the shelves and the mirrors you will see in the last picture and knew they would go perfectly. We aren’t really doing a theme in his nursery. We love elephants and giraffes and so those are the two main animals we are using. (Every kid needs animals) But otherwise, we just wanted it to be raw and rustic (in a non-hick sort of way haha). Earthy and natural, rust red and sage greens with lots of neutrals. Wicker and burlap touches. Here’s his art up on the wall. *Remember: I have to blot out his name–these black blobs aren’t just some eccentric art thing I’ve got going on. ;-p

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His rocker($40) and dresser ($50) we got from Goodwill. My husband sanded some areas on the dresser to make it a little more rustic. All total for furniture we only spent $150. I’m a bargain fiend, and I get a high off of saving money so this is really exciting!

That’s all I have so far for Baby D’s nursery progress. There will be more for sure! Especially once it’s all finished…

Last, but not least, here are just a few of my favorites from our maternity shoot last Saturday. Huge shout out to my awesome sister for sacrificing her time and enduring the Texas heat to take these.

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What we do…

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How did this happen? When did I wake up and realize how different everything was? When did it change? DID it change or was it always this way and I just didn’t see? How could I not have seen? It’s all so clear now. But why now? Why, when I have so much going for me? Why, when there’s so much to celebrate? What if I don’t want to accept this as reality? What if I refuse to believe this? OUCH! Stop! Just STOP! Please, don’t do this! Fine! I’ll accept it…it’s become too painful not to. But what now? Now my pain stems from the fact that I even have to accept this.

Reprieve. Can I just get a reprieve from this. Even my dreams haunt me, toy with my head, and every day I wake up weaker than the day before. “The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want…” I quote this over and over so much that I feel it’s become an appendage on my body. Between the confusion, painful self talk, and positive self coaching, I find myself looking for a hole in the universe to slip into. One that is not bound by time. One in which I could be gone for years. Living free like an exotic bird that takes flight whenever it chooses and can soar above it all. A nomad. Yet, would only be nothing more than a bathroom break to the rest of the world. The world, that offers me nothing more than unsolicited advice half the time. Can I not just tell you how I feel without your peachy, positive opinions? When you ask me what’s wrong and I say “nothing”, it’s because I want to be able to say how I feel without you telling me what I need to do about it. Can I just be alone for God’s sakes? Can I just purge it all from my system like a physician does to an overdose victim? If it was easy enough to mourn it like a death, I would have already done so. But how can I mourn a living thing? Living and breathing.

I’m so angry!!!!! What did I ever do? Do you know how much I care? Do you know how much I love you? God! Do you know how much I wish I didn’t? If I could numb myself of you, wouldn’t that be easier? I ask myself this knowing that it’s not true. I wasn’t made that way. I wasn’t made calloused and cold, despite what you might think. If you only knew me. The real me. If you only saw me. I’m so angry that you are so incapable of that and yet, I hurt for you that you can’t. I want to curse you, slaughter every memory of you-past and present-and I want to magically change it for you, for us; wrap you in a hug that melts every layer of anguish from our cells, never to remembered anymore. 

This internal tug of war must end. What must I do? Help me. Help me. Someone. Something. Help me…

 

This, this is what we do…

I sat down not knowing what the heck to write about. I wanted to blog about nursery updates and really light-hearted, fun things. But the minute I set my hand to the keys, this title came to my head. Pounding in my head almost, and I suddenly couldn’t think of one way to write my “cute little blog” for the day. I said, “God, really? What do I write?” He said, “Just write what you’re feeling, go with it.” I am willing to bet that there is not one of us that haven’t experienced this inner dialogue between our mind and heart at one point or even many in our life. It’s what we do… By “we”, I don’t mean we in our conscious selves try to feel this way. I mean the “we” that is our subconscious. The place that most often goes unnoticed, unseen, and unappreciated. It’s sorting through information trying to bring stability to my conscious mind before I am even aware of it. Behind the scenes… If we could understand what our subconscious carries, remembers, and even provides for us on a daily basis, I sometimes wonder how different we would all be. I am not here to offer any advice today. Rather, the opposite. We don’t always need advice. We don’t always need the “bigger opinion”. The “higher way”. If you identify with the written words above, I suspect you want nothing to do with advice. And you know what? I think that that’s okay. I think that’s just perfect. I think you should be allowed to just feel sometimes without the pressure to “not stay there” or the “Okay, what’s my next step?”

Sometimes, all we need is to know we are not alone. That someone else is feeling exactly what we are feeling. That it’s okay. To be allowed to feel. Because the truth is….it’s what we do, and you are not alone.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Five Quick, Easy, and Healthy Recipes: one for every night of the week

First of all, yes I know there are seven days in a week, but let’s face it–we all go out on the weekend. Maybe not all weekend long, but what I find that we all most need is something we can throw together quick in the time period  right after work and between those other “extra-curricular’s” we always seem to have on weeknights; more than that, most of us want healthy. The majority of us are all trying to make little adjustments here and there that will better our health. The problem most times, however, is that we don’t realize just how easy it is.  So many times we associate healthy with words like difficult, expensive, too much prep time…and on and on and on. Folks, this is a load of crap. Unfortunately, there was a time where the pendulum swung so far to an almost religious and unrealistic degree that instead of being able to enjoy food the way you were supposed to, food started to become the enemy. Food is not your enemy, it is actually one of your best friends. I could go on forever on the subject of how food actually works, not only with your body, but for your body to do many AMAZING things, but that’s a blog for another time. Bottom line: I love to eat, I love food….HUGE foodie, and I don’t like being put in a box when it comes to eating healthy–and guess what? I don’t have to and you don’t have to. Aside from fake, packaged, processed, greasy, and altered foods, if God made it and it comes from the Earth He made, eat it! So, that being said, you want some great recipes you can feel good about? ORDER UP!

These are recipes I make frequently and are top favorites of mine.

1.  Jenny-O 93/7 Turkey burgers with brown rice and usually broccoli.

-Very simple. These thaw in no time. Stick them under some luke warm water while still packaged if you forgot to set them out and they will be thawed in 5 min. Season how you want, cook in a fry pan.

-You can get instant Brown Rice that takes ten min on the stove. Hello! Easy. Might need a little salt cause it is just the rice and can be a little bland. A little salt is good for you, have some.

-Steam your broccoli or eat it raw. Basically just put some veggies on your plate. I try to always have something green with my meals even if it’s just a salad (dark greens like spring mix, kale, spinach, and romaine thought. None of this iceberg AKA water stuff) Really, the choice is up to you…eat up!

2. Tilapia with black beans and asparagus

-Frozen Tilapia thawed and cooked on the stove with some olive oil. Again, season how you like. Everyone has different styles of what they prefer. Sometimes we just do pepper lemon and some Mrs. Dash.

-Can of black beans heated either on the stove or microwave.

-Asparagus in the pan. My husband likes to lightly coat bottom of the pan with olive oil, couple splashes of soy sauce, throw in asparagus, and roll it around to coat it with all the goodness. Salt and pepper to taste, cover and let cook until tender on medium heat.

SIDE NOTE:

We stopped eating any kind of enriched pastas or breads a few years ago and it will make a huge difference for you. Why? Well, because enriched anything is not good for you. Not to mention that there is no nutritional benefit in it and it doesn’t sustain you. It bloats you, and that is totally different. You feel really full, but that’s because your body is trying to process a simple carbohydrate: AKA bad. Brown Rice pastas are available everywhere now and I love brown rice anything. If you haven’t tried it, you should. It really doesn’t have a weird taste like you may be thinking and you will feel so much better after you eat it. If you don’t like brown rice pasta then try to get whole grain or whole wheat if you must. It’s still slightly enriched, but not anything near as bad as the bleached stuff.

3. Chicken and Brown Rice Penne Pasta with peppers

-Thaw chicken. Lightly coat bottom of pan with olive oil. Add TBSP of minced garlic, salt and pepper, and add chicken. I like to cut my thawed chicken in medallions before I put them in the pan and my hubby prefers to cut them after they’ve been cooked. Find your style, but you want them as medallions. While they are cooking on medium heat, add onions, little chicken broth, and some white wine. Pour a glass for yourself too while you’re at it.:)

*no white wine if you’re preggie…unfortunately, just chicken broth. 😦

-Cut up a good amount of red and green bell peppers depending on how many you are cooking for, and when chicken is half way done add them in with the chicken.  Cover.

-While chicken is covered, start your brown rice penne in a saucepan. When done and drained, set to the side.

-Once chicken mixture is fully cooked, add your noodles in and stir together.

-Serve topped with feta cheese. This MAKES the meal. It won’t taste the same without it. Enjoy!

 

4. White Chili–can be made in Crockpot or Stovetop

You will need:

-One jar of salsa

-1 can of Rotel (2 if you like spicy)

-1 can of black, great northern, pinto, and kidney beans

-1 Shredded chicken breast (this is mildly meaty and about 6-8oz. Adjust by how many you’re serving and/or how meaty you like it. If you’re in a hurry use canned chicken. Just be sure to read your labels and make sure it doesn’t have a bunch of additives.)

-Onion and Garlic (real or minced)

How to:

If you’re making this in the crock pot, everything goes in and stews. This is perfect to do in the morning before work and cook on low and it’s ready to eat when you get home. If you do this on the stovetop in a large pot, add olive oil, sautéed onion and garlic first, then just add all remaining ingredients.

-Stir and enjoy! (If you like, you can top with some mixed cheese and plain, non-fat, greek yogurt as a substitute for sour cream.)

You can’t mess this up. Get creative if you want by adding any kind of meat you like. This recipe works great with all kinds of meat. Steak, ground turkey, shrimp, etc. Add other veggies like carrots if you prefer, too. This recipe is one of my favorites. High in protein, veggies, and best of all I like anything I can “dump and sup”. Easy, easy, easy!

 

Last, but not least, we all need to have breakfast for dinner sometimes. I LOVE breakfast for dinner. Here’s one of my favorites.

5. 3 egg veggie omelet 2 slices whole-grain or gluten free toast topped with nut butter of choice.

-Do three whole eggs (3 eggs=1 serving of your protein for the day), 1 whole egg and 2 egg whites (one of my personal favorites), or go all egg-white.

-If you don’t know how to make and omelet, learn! Just kidding, just kidding–although it’s fun to learn. But if you don’t know how, you can do the same thing scrambled.

-Add in bell peppers (whatever colors you like), a little cheese (optional), and pico.

TIP: If you are watching your cheese intake, but love it as much as I do, you can skip the heavy mixed cheese and sprinkle the finished omelet with parmesan. It’s a little more reduced in its fat content. 

-Toast whole grain toast and top with whatever nut butter you prefer (almond, peanut, etc.)

I LOVE peanut butter, but if your peanut butter says “NO NEED TO STIR” you have a problem. The only ingredients you should have in “good for you” PB are peanuts and salt. The end. And you should have to stir it up like your churning butter in the old days (bonus arm workout). The thing with this is it’s not going to taste like the over sweet Jiffy or Skippy you’re used to (seriously those names?), but it is so good, and if you need to cut the bitterness, drizzle a little honey or agave nectar on top. Enjoy!

Please let me know if you made any of these, how they turned out, and if you enjoyed them. I would love to hear your feedback or any questions you might have. Here’s to a little less stress during your week!

Toning up your Soul ☮ {the spiritual side of lunges}

As many of you know I am a huge fitness and health fanatic! I follow a community and trainers called Tone It Up. They have inspired me to be even healthier than I already was from the inside–out. Everything works together, challenging your body physically, but also through meditation and challenging your body to be still. I do believe in meditation. I’m not new age or anything, but the Lord talks about meditating on Him and on the word. Yoga is one thing I absolutely love. As you meditate and you find that still place beside still waters, not only are you challenging your organs, muscles, joints, and Central Nervous System to “rest”, but you are able to hear clearly what the Lord wants for your life. That is my passion…to bring that to other people.  This post was the word of the Lord for me last August 2012 and I found it hidden in some Facebook notes today. I saw it on the TIU blog from a lady who is the founder of Tiny Devotions (a Mala bead company) and affiliated with the founders of Tone it Up so I take no credit for this post, but thought maybe it would speak to some of you as it did me. Have a wonderful day!

P.S. Be on the lookout for some quick, easy, and healthy recipes for your weeknights. 🙂

 

 

Toning up your Soul ☮

{the spiritual side of lunges}

 

What I was most surprised and impressed about after hanging out with my girls K and K for a day was not their beautiful faces and rockin’ hard bodies (I was expecting that). It was actually their inner beauty and their rockin’ souls.

Karena and Katrina are the real deal and you can tell by peeking into their lives for a few hours or even by watching one of their youtube videos that they are world class manifestors. {the make it happen, live your dreams kind of gals}

I really should not have been surprised because Karena and Katrina radiate love, inspiration, light, joy, peace and give so much to the universe that all of the energy they put out comes back to them in the form of their most amazing TIU community. They manifested you and me as TIU members! And, we are aligned with their values and were looking for them – so we manifested them too 😉 A match made in manifestation heaven!

I believe that manifesting begins with the body. Our body is our vehicle here on earth and although we don’t have control over what life throws at us – we have control over what we eat and what we do with our bodies on a day to day basis.

Now, I don’t know much about the anatomical make up of the body {I’ll leave that to K and K}– but I do know about the energetic. We are made of so much energy and much like our muscles and bodies hold stress and strain – they also hold memories – both good and well… not so good {break ups, injuries, negative emotions and traumas}.

How we feel in our bodies affects every other aspect of life. How good to you feel after doing the Beach Babe Workout, drinking a green juice, a protein shake or going for a run. { you feel phenomenal – and are happier, healthier, lighter, more energetic and lively }.

Besides being the founder of Tiny Devotions– {a boho chic mala bead company encouraging people to live inspired and intention based lives} I am also a yoga teacher and have seen amazing correlations in the body that relate to someone’s soul and entire life.

Disclaimer: I’m not going to get all chakra’d on you all but we have energy centers in the body that correlate to different area of our life such as grounding, security, sexuality, power, heart, communication, intuition etc. It’s a whole other post 😉

Check in with yourself – are you breathing? Is there a certain area of your body that feels tense and stressed? It’s likely that this physical tension correlates to a mental, emotional or spiritual tension you are also experiencing.

My beliefs are that what you are feeling in your body is a direct manifestation about where you are at in your life.

If your shoulders are heavy and tense it is likely that you are “carrying the weight of the world” in some area of your life – perhaps taking on too much at work or in a friendship.

If you chest is tight – it is possible that your heart is not open and that you may be shutting yourself down from love – either self-love or love in your relationships.

Every part of your body corresponds energetically to a certain aspect of your life. Many people who feel “stuck” in life are those that don’t exercise. When they start using their body and start feeling their legs work then they can start energetically moving forward.

If we acknowledge that there is an energetic side of our bodies – it empowers us that our workouts are much more then calorie blasting or muscle building sessions – they are the beginnings steps for the recipe of the life that we are creating.

Challenge yourself to set intentions before your work-outs and use them as a time to not only work out your body – but visualize and create a road map for toning up your soul and manifesting your dreams.

In order to manifest, create or attract what you are looking for the first thing you need to do is know what you want.

What do you want?

 

Are you sure that is what you want?

Many people struggle with figuring out this key question – if you are looking for clarity –  do quiet meditative work outs for a while – go walk on the beach, hang out in some yoga poses or simply turn off the music and go for a run in silence. If you have no idea what you want – start with what you don’t want.

One of the first steps in manifesting is usually letting go of what you don’t want and creating space for new and good to come in!

I once had to let go of a broken heart left behind from a previous boyfriend. I made it my mission to let him go – repainted my room, got rid of the clothes that reminded me of him, threw the ring he gave me into the ocean (extreme but affective) and dedicated a yoga class and every exhale during it to letting him go. {and it worked}.

In a matter of days I felt more space and joy then I had felt in a long time and right in front of my eyes I was introduced to a whole group of new friends and found myself unexpectedly in a yoga teacher training living out my dreams.

I had been carrying around so much heartbreak that although nothing changed with time or money  – the space in my mind and heart opened up new opportunities and possibilities in my life.

Ok, so now you know what you want and have let go of the people, things, and beliefs that are standing in the way. Now what?

Now you have to feel it. If you want to be a _________________  have a ___________ or you want to go to ______________ {or whatever else you dream about} you need to feel as though you already have it. You need to talk about it, express it and most importantly take action on it.

A lot of people get stuck because they cannot imagine how what they want could possibly happen. It’s important to not be attached to the how but more importantly know the {why}. Why do you want this? Is it for the betterment of yourself and the world?

The universe conspires to make peoples dreams come true. Unfortunately – we are often the ones in our own way. We don’t believe we are good enough, or believe that it is possible. We often don’t even show up.

When you commit to something – with 108% of your heart and mind and soul then there is no possibility that it won’t happen. {unless of course it is the wrong door and it will lead you to the right door for you}

Set an intention everyday for what you want to achieve – no matter how big or how small – when you live in this way every minute is a living meditation for creating the life of your dreams.

From the words of my man Goethe,

Whatever you can do or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power and magic in it!

 

 

Do it, Do it now.

– Diana Charabin

 

Beautiful Breakthrough

Time for the first blog! I’m very excited about this. It’s a little lengthy, but I’ve been contemplating what the long-awaited first blog should be, and in doing so, it only seems fitting to take you back about 6 months to a time that changed me forever. October of 2012. Setting: Destin, Florida, fall, morning.

To preface this day, something in me thought I was pregnant about a week before I left for this trip with my family (all minus my husband) and I was truly expecting it. I had had a few times where I had been late and all those times that, in the end I turned up not pregnant, I dealt with a “mad if I am, mad if I’m not” type of emotion. I wasn’t ready to start trying for a family, but I was always sad when I would start the inevitable monthly cycle. I fought with these feelings so much that played a very confusing tug o’ war with my heart. God reminded me one day in the shower (why does it always seem like the shower is the holy of holy’s sometimes?) that Kalen and I had said we would always be sensitive to the time when He said it was time to start a family. But He also reminded me that I hadn’t done that. I had made my own timeline for how long Kalen and I wanted to wait, and THEN we would ask the Lord his plan. His plan inside my plan, essentially. That’s how it works right? ha Well, needless to say, I kept ignoring those subtle and loving nudges, but they were slowly breaking the ice around some fortifications I had around my heart.

Flash back forward to a beautiful early morning in Destin. I woke early to go for a run by the beach with my sister. This was the day I was on schedule for that lovely monthly gift to arrive, but I was sure it wasn’t going to happen, remember? Well, we all know where this is going. The emotions flaring inside me were more than I could even make sense of. Anger, anger about my anger, sadness, pain, confusion on why I felt pain…and on and on it went. I remember busting opening the bedroom door and saying to my sister, “If you want to go running with me you better get up ’cause I’m leaving.” Yeah, I was a little bitchy nonetheless, but my sister and her grace knew something must be going on and she just said “Ok…be right there”. Poor thing had to catch up with me because I was out of that door like a teenager with an attitude problem. We ran in silence, thank God, and then we decided to split up for a while to go have some quiet time with the Lord on different parts of the beach. As I sat down, the craziest, most beautiful thing happened to me:

All I remember is saying through sobs and blurry eyes, “God, why do I feel this way? I can’t keep doing this!” From there, I never uttered another word for about an hour. Daddy God became so real to me in that moment then He has but one other time in my life that I can still, a year later, be right back there when I think about it. It was an experience that changed me, shaped my belief system, shifted my heart and mindset so drastically, that I can’t go back to the old me if I tried–and I don’t want to. He didn’t come to me as all glorious and powerful, booming voice God. He was so my friend in that moment like I’ve never experienced. He began to tell me how he saw my pain; pain in more areas than one and he named all of them for exactly how they were. He showed me how much I truly longed to have a baby and be a mother and that it was my passion. He began to unravel the places in me that was afraid to let go and really trust that He had the best for me. I am a planner by nature. I see way ahead and already have a strategy for how to get there and what needs to be accomplished now in order to get there effectively. He showed me that he put those qualities in me, loves those qualities. He said, “I love your plans and I’m actually going to use them, but I may not use them in the way you would or when you would sometimes. One thing is for certain, however, if you allow me to be the ultimate planner and let me change plans if necessary, you will experience those very things to all the fullness and joy your heart can stand.” I realized in that moment that I had stopped trusting and needing him. I had let a gifting become the very thing that hindered me from the one who gave it to me in the first place. I realized that I almost had too much vision. I had started to become my god for my future. There are so many details surrounding that hour on the beach and words pale in comparison to the essence of that life changing moment, but I am here to say, I didn’t leave that beach the same way I crossed onto it. So many hindrances fell off like sand from my shoulders and I was a new person. No longer the scared, “God these are my plans, how do yours work inside them?”, make my own future, kind of girl. I was now free from feeling alone. I am still a planner, an “ahead of time” person, a person who sees and makes a game plan. Only now I am able to know when to let go when I hear Him lead in a different direction and really be okay with it, knowing that I am totally taken care of and more. In my “About” page, you see at the bottom Jeremiah 29:11. That is my promise word. He wrote that on my heart that day on the beach and it continues keep me steadfast and bring me back to a place of peace when I’m unsure. It’s become a major part of who I am. That day on the beach was October 29th, 2012.

When I met back up with my sister, we shared small parts of our quiet time with each other. As we did, my sister gave me some advice that day that lined up and confirmed what God had just done to me. When I got home, I shared everything with my husband. Through prayer, we knew we weren’t supposed to actively try for a baby, but that we weren’t supposed to be so strict that it took away from our love either. We knew that whether we got pregnant that day, or 5 years from then, that we were at peace with any plan He had for us. It was about four months until March 2nd, 2013, we found out we were going to have our precious son! His official due date? October 29th, 2013. A wonderful friend and powerful woman of God told me that she just kept hearing that this baby was my going to be my “Beautiful Breakthrough”. It’s not until we received his official due date that the Lord took me back to this encounter. It’s so like him to bring things full circle. Not only did I receive a beautiful breakthrough that day on the beach, but out of what was birthed on that day will be the physical manifestation of it a full year from then. This is so close to my heart and makes me so emotional. He really is my “Beautiful Breakthough!”